Strength Finder informed me a year and a half ago that I have the strength of "Responsibility." This is no surprise to me and probably not to those who know me, either. It makes me reliable to those who need me. It also makes my life extremely chaotic.
Anything I do, I want to do well. I also do not want to let down or disappoint those who are relying on me. As a result, even when I am over-committed, I find myself pushing through. If I back out of a commitment, the task now becomes a burden to someone else.
Enter Fall 2011.
I am working three jobs, taking 14 credits, auditing an additional 3 credits, involved in ministry at my church, participating with a chapel worship band, working out 3 days a week, meeting weekly with 2 individuals (not counting the 6 mentor meetings which I have as a part of one of my jobs), and trying to take care of my physical and social lives as well. Something has got to give. I barely have time for homework. One friend observed today that they have not seen me working on my homework once since school started 3 weeks ago; instead, I'm working on grading everyone else's (that's my other 2 jobs). His statement was pretty accurate.
So now comes the time when I let someone down. I say 'no' to something. I might even back out of one of my commitments. This stuff kills me.
