sliding

Once I stood
now I am slumped
in a pile near the floor
leaning against the wall

I crumbled
then was picked up
by well-meaning friends
and leaned against the wall

Slowly I slid
sliding down the wall
till I became a pile
on the floor against the wall

A poem

Tears spill unbeckoned
Eyes swollen and red
Please, please stop

Despair tightens my chest
Sorrow and grief hold tight
A challenge to breathe

Swallow, swallow, must swallow
Desire and hunger vanish
Food forced down

Goodbye

22 days to forever, but forever never comes...

Trust

Trust
Do I trust?
Do I dare?
Fear creeps in
Circling like a hawk.
Faith,
Where have you gone?
Will you return?
Can I come to you?

Faith
I pursue
Unceasingly I chase
Unbidden, I follow anyway
Trust
I choose
Anchoring upon the Faithful
Worshiping the Worthy One

Mmm... Mornings

The warmth of a down comforter as I slowly stretch under the covers...

...the smell of coffee brewing as I step out of the shower...

...leisurely contemplating some Pauline literature...

...eggs rising to golden, fluffy perfection in my breakfast casserole...

...a phone call from a dear friend...

...the golden rays dancing on my face through the window...

There's just something about Saturday mornings.

migraine

Pounding, piercing pang

Palpitating, pulsating pressure

Pinching, purring pitch

Punctures, punishing pain

Pitching, punching, pummeling

Thrash, throb, thump

Thrust, thunder, throe

Thresh, thrill, throw

Thrum, thankless thud

Thinking threatens, thwack

fermentation

I want to hide
Scared to abide
with arms wide
open


Inside I scream
Words unseen
I patch the seam
closed


Masquerade in drapes
(the fruit of grapes)
Vulnerable scrapes
forever


Cry these tears?
Ignore the sneers?
Unveil all fears?
never

 

To be known

Hungering
for companionship
Aching
from solitude
Boldness
portraying confidence
Weeping
to be known

Known
to my deepest depths
Pursued
even when I run
Fulfilled
depths unimaginable
Satisfied
by my Husband, my Maker

Clean

Rain pours
Thunder rolls
I am washed
I hear Your voice
'Cry out to Me
Cry your fears
Your deep pain
Be free'

feeling love

I've forgotten how to feel
My emotions are numb
My heart remains untouched
What's it going to take
For me to feel love again?
I won't feel love
Until I feel loved
Thank You for loving me

unceasing

pain pierces
constant
fierce aching stab
continuous
numbness more painful
and unending
comfort flees my presence
forever
it radiates, taking my breath
away
my strength is robbed to my bones
unceasing

Returning

Remind me of how close we've been
When we walked through the forest
And danced on the sandy shore
Remind me of romantic nights out
Shared pie at a table for two
While encouragement from Your Word 
Washed over me
...remind me