Five years ago today...

Five years ago today, I made the hardest decision of my life.  I ended a relationship.  I walked away from a dream.

I'm glad of this: five years ago today, I did not know today.

I did not know where the path would lead.  I might have been overwhelmed.

I say this, but what I do not mean is that I have any regrets.  I look back on this day five years ago and I perceive the best decision I have ever made (with the exception of my decision to follow Christ). 

The road this decision has led me down has been most challenging, but also most rewarding.  But who is to say a different decision would have been less challenging?  It most certainly would not have been rewarding.  Not in the least.

Today, I look back on a day which was, well, good.  But this week is not filled with memories of things which are good.  It is a week of difficult memories.  Processing them (yet again) has not become easier with the passage of time.  Instead, it has grown with difficulty.  Yet, someday, the pain will ease.

Someday, the pain will ease.